You know what reader... maybe i'm not meant to be partying, I had an anxiety attack at the party last night and I'm really embarrassed about it but at the same time what did I expect I mean, I was feeling anxious leading up to the party anyway. I just feel bad cause I had to dip out early and everyone else was in the party mood. Like damn am I just lame now a days?? LMFAO
Anyway besides that I did my best to have a good time, Not really much to report on, it was a pretty chill party I had just forgot to take my meds is all. Today is a new day!!
But now that we're here I might as well talk a little bit more about why I even started dabbling in Vtubing in the first place, You see I dated this guy who's been into vtubing since the very beginning, I'm talking before the big boom in popularity during the pandemic. So i credit him for my knowlege on Vtubing, whch isnt a lot for the record HE was the guru I was just the spectator in all this.
Now how i got into it is a bit of a trickier question, because Vtubing has always been something I was interested in but I didnt know how to go about it, In some of my earlier streams i even used little gifs instead of a web cam because I was too shy to show my face. So i guess you can say I used to be a gif tuber at some point? Although at the time I didnt have my own OC like I do now XD. No my drive for vtubing didnt come until late 2023 when i started watching this pretty wolf girl named Silvervale
2023 was a rough year for me for varius reasons, for one thing that was the year I became a new mother, and was going through a really bad break up as well, I deleted twitter and became less active on social media... which if you know me is very shocking. But i still watched Silvervale, Pippa, Bao, Bijou and FuwaMoco, it was them that helped me keep my head up during those dark times.
Then in early 2025 I decided to go back to social media again, and i immediately inserted myself and made myself at home in the vtubing community, back then I was really into chiikawa (still verry much am) so I also gained a bit of "street cred" with that community. Within my first couple weeks of being on vtuber twt, i find a small indie group by the name of "V420" and yes as the name entails it was of group of pothead Weedtubers LMFAO, we would all get together and have lil smoke sessions, play games together, it was a really good time. It was through this community that I find Srawbz🩷 and some prissy bitch by the name of AkumaMiko.
Now here's the thing... I love drama, I love drama so much, maybe it makes me evil but i dont care, if you want the tea, I HAVE SOME FUCKING TEA. Piping hot, ready to serve. So Miko by far had the largest following within that group, it was no question so it was a shock to me that someone like her was in there in the first place, so you know what? I followed her because yeah i wanted to get to know her, who was she?? She was hardly active within the group too so it made no sense to me. Well you see Miko was very active on twitter... and i mean reeeeeaally active, it was like all she did was sit on her ass and tweet all fuckin day. If you were to go to her page rn all you would see is reposts... thats because she's under new management. Back when i followed her it was all original posts and this chick posted A LOT.
And as you probably already guessed I ended up in a teeny bit of drama with her,so with my twitterversary just around the corner what better time to talk about it? Especially when everything has already been said and done.
So you see I was a bit confrontational when I "first" came around twitter, and so you would always catch me in heated arguments with racists, transphobes, homophobes... all the -phobes you know? And Miko would interract with them... and their hateful posts like nothing?? Like im not one to follow police but... you know if 1+1=2 then what the fuck does interracting with fucked up individuals entail? And it wasnt just a one time thing, no she considered these people her FriENDS???! So why would a girl who's seemingly agreeing with racists and transphobes doing in a discord group full of LGBTQ and POC???
Make it make fucking sense bruh, anyway so one day I see her interract with one of those "cleaning up my followers list" posts, you know those posts that racists always have to put up to make sure people know that they're racist?? yeah well, she replied to that agreeing with it and calling anyone who disagreed radical... and i replied "you're the radicals btw" then blocked her. She then proceeded to screenshot my shit out of context WITH MY HANDLE SHOWING and posted it to her over 20k fans framing me as a sexist... almost immediately I was bombarded with racists in my DM's and replies, and at the time i used to be very active on Rednote and had my page in my bio... they called me slurs for that.
And i know this happened a year ago, everthing has alredy been said and done... but lately there's been a tone shift with Miko's content... she went from sassy cat girl to a fake positive version of herself and to me that's a bit baffling... i know people can change within a year, I certinly have but that was due to me actually getting proffessional help, starting medication and easing my use of certain substances *cough* (marijuana) *cough* How much could Miko have changed within a year if she needed a fucking Manager to make sure she doesnt publically involve herself with fucked up individuals?
It's so petty I know, that's why i'm not really providing any screenshots cause i feel that'd be a bit hypocritical, I'm also not interested in ending peoples career's however that doesn't mean i'm not gonna hold people accountable for the shit they do, and although this was a tiny event that took place it's what motivated me to keep going, because it's obvious this space needs more kindness and accountability.
Anyway, this post is getting long, I hope you all enjoyed this one, Until next time, Take care!!
